Serious Thinking

I've taken a little mini vacation from work and from everyone and everything else at home. I've taken it for one very simple reason. I need to do some serious thinking. I need to do some serious thinking because I'm having second thoughts about whether or not to marry my fiance. I still love him very much, but the longer I live with him the more I notice about him things that I don't like. He doesn't manage money well, he is very possessive and jealous, he leaves housework for me to do when I get home from a long weekend at work and he is not a very considerate lover. These are just some of the things I have noticed since we moved in together back in May. We haven't had any fights except for when I was breifly off of my medication. But part of that could be my fault because I haven't told him whats been bothering me. The thing is, is that I don't think telling him would help anything. I don't see him being able to change no matter how much he loves me. So while I'm on this little mini vacation of mine I'm going to do some serious thinking about what I want and need in a relationship and hopefully come to the conclusion that is right for me. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.